Counting Down

T - 30 Minutes:
Am thinking to myself how amazing the last few days were for me. Never in my life would I imagine sharing this moment with you in this bed, in this place and after all this time. Staring out at the ceiling and then turning my eyes to the clear blue skies outside the window, this sense of serenity is made full with you in my arms. There is nothing in the world that matters anymore. For these few moments, there is nothing else in my world except you, me, the bed and the blue skies above us. If only time would just stop and we can have this moment forever...

T- 25 Minutes:
Am now remembering what a night it was before. Our very first kiss, 17 years in the making. The sweetest kiss that I've ever savored. Why did it take so long to come full circle? No matter. I'd rather be there when the circle comes round even if it takes an eternity than for nothing at all.

T - 20 Minutes:
Am now thinking why'd we refrained the night before to make beautiful love? Did I worry that it would probably be too messy afterwards? No. The reason was far simpler. For the simple reason that I do love you, more deeply than you understand or know. I sense that you are fragile still. I do really want to but I cannot. I do not want to be the one who comes, takes and leaves like that. Do you understand me? I'm so sorry.

T - 15 Minutes:
You're there now lying there and listening to my heartbeat and taking a deep breath with your nose on my neck. I closed my eyes as I hear you say that you will remember my scent. For a moment I almost cried but you would never know. For a moment, I wonder to myself, if that is all that you will have to remember me by? We never had much to remember by all these years. Maybe this was good.

T - 10 Minutes:
Am now looking at you and slowly absorbing every detail I see. Those fine lines beneath your eyes. Signs of age, weariness and pain. Life has taken such a toll on both you and I. For a while my heart aches. Can I smoothen those lines and make everything alright? Felt my heart twitch. You say you've never expected yourself to be so attached to me. I smiled and held you closer more.

T-5 Minutes:
Time bleeds away. Our time is coming to an end. I remember you saying how I am someone so faraway yet so close and that you cannot bear to hold my hands for more than just a moment. I think I understand. I am sorry for not leaving you with more beautiful memories.

T-1 Minute:
We catch on for our final kiss, with the knowing that, when this moment is over we will go back to our lives and this moment will stay as it is - a beautiful memory in our minds. As our lips part away for the last time, I sense the walls that we've built up over the last few moments come crumbling down. The weight of the world is heavy once more.

T-Now:
With my head to the door as I walk out slowly. Here I leave behind my most beautiful memories of a love that would never be. With a deep breath I let go.
With a smile I thank you for this beautiful moment that will be in my memories for as long as I live.


Proseac: To my very first love, thank you for this magic moment of my life.